Thursday, April 19, 2012

It was a dark and stormy night...

[Okay, not really, but it's been so long since I blogged regularly that I thought I might need to lure some of you back to read this...]
It was actually just a normal Sunday night, preceded by a beautiful and above average temperatured Saturday.  A Saturday during which I enjoyed a long walk with a good friend and came home to find my little boys "helping" my hubby clean the garage, mostly by drawing with sidewalk chalk and blowing bubbles.  Saturday evening we went out to dinner with family.  Napless Luke is always a bit of a handful so he was extremely rowdy and I was horrified, but attempting to be calm.  It was just pizza, right?  Not a 5 star restaurant.  Saturday night we gave him some Benadryl after listening to him cough for awhile in bed.  Anytime Luke plays outside during the day, Benadryl is a bedtime companion.  I asked the doctor about this, coupled with the fact that I think he sounds really short of breath sometimes when he plays really hard outside, but she told me that as long as he recovers quickly it probably just means he needs to be more active.  I understand what she meant, but it made me laugh a little to hear her suggest Luke needs to be more active. 

Fast forward to Sunday morning.  We dropped the boys in their classrooms at church, then Dave and I attended the first service and went on to our classes that we teach for second service.  Partway through that service I got paged by the children's department to "please come."  This is not the first time I have been paged like this and I will confess that I was praying for a very minor injury or perhaps just that Max really needed his mommy.  No such luck.  At the end of my 'walk of shame' was Luke and his teacher, waiting for me in the hallway.  She explained that he would not sit where/when instructed, was defiant, and finally started kicking at people.  Oh, lovely.  Now, I'll take him back to teach the 1st graders that other  parents have entrusted to me.  Clearly they have no clue what a bang up job I'm doing with my own child!  But he just seemed off.  I couldn't really explain it.  [And I'm NOT doubting that he did all of those things that he was dismissed from class for doing, nor am I excusing his behavior.]  But, he didn't want me to pick him up.  He seemed to really just want to be left alone - which is NOT like Lukey at all. 

He got to hang out with Dave and his class until church was over.  Then we headed home, had lunch, and got everyone settled down to rest.  Except that Luke would not settle down.  Dave tried laying down with him but even that didn't encourage sleep.  I wasn't really too surprised as the more tired Luke is, the harder it is for him to fall asleep. 

Then at dinner he was goofing around (or so mother of the year) thought and making strange wheezing noises when he would cough.  I think I even yelled at him for it at one point.  Allergy moms do not see humor in wheezing noises.

We finally got everyone settled in bed and finally sat down ourselves when I heard Luke open his bedroom door.  It's very loud when it opens, which is good because he spends a lot of time trying to escape.  Dave got up first and went to check on him.  He had already had Benadryl but was still coughing.  I heard Dave asking him if he was okay so I went to join them.  He was sitting at the top of the stairs and I could hear him wheezing down at the bottom of the stairs.  NOT good.  Having had a nearly $400 ear infection (and not the best service at that) last year because I jumped the gun and ran to the ER (what am I, a novice?), Luke and I set up camp on the couch where I could console, love, listen, find stuffed monkey and his little pillow, and generally be awake most of the night worrying.

So, Monday morning (March 26th) Lukey got to visit with one of his very favorite people in all the world - his pediatrician. I am SO thankful for her and her patience with Luke.  He loves to chat up all the people who work in the office and answer all of their questions for me.  The doctor came in, listened to him breathe, and said, "Wow, he's really wheezing."  Boo.  Bummer.  Enter a nurse with a nebulizer and our first ever breathing treatment. 

 He got to spend a week doing breathing treatments every 4 hours and taking a steroid.  Her diagnosis was 'seasonal allergy induced asthma.'  Ick. I didn't really even think to ask what this means long term.  Luke was busy with her stethoscope, trying to listen to HER breathe, and I was trying not to lose my mind begging him to stop poking on the doctor. 
He was a champ about the treatments and the meds. I even mentioned to someone that he was sleeping all night long since he had the treatments - no waking up crying, no showing up at my side of the bed at 4:30, etc.

Fast forward to this last Sunday night - exactly 2 weeks off meds.  Wheezing.  An offer by us, and initial refusal by him, of a breathing treatment with a little boy begging just to go back to sleep (even though he got up on his own and had come all the way downstairs).  An attempt to give Benadryl which ended with the stuffed monkey taking more Benadryl

We continued breathing treatments all day Monday and Tuesday.  By Tuesday afternoon he was done and so was I.  Crummy sleep for all Sunday night and Monday night, plus more and more coughing.  I made an appointment for Wednesday morning for him to visit, again, with his pediatrician.

There we got the diagnosis that didn't surprise me but kind of disappointed me.  Asthma.  She said it's tough to diagnose the first time because one of its characteristics is recurrence.  However, a second visit in three weeks seemed to seal the deal.  She also said the waking up at night is indicative, as is the coughing more after playing outside.  So, this week we are back to oral steroids, the nebulizer and the first medicine, and now a second.  The second will continue indefinitely - twice a day.  So, "have breathing machine, will travel" seems to be the new motto.  I feel a bit like I should sign him and his epi pen and breathing machine up for boy scouts - he's always prepared! 

Finally, he was really wired when he started on the breathing treatments a few weeks ago.  His doctor apologized warned me that this might be an issue.  After the second or third one there was a clip on the television about one of the dancing shows and he was enthusiastically convincing me to try out the moves they were doing.  Thankfully the jittery super hyper [must dance] post-treatment behavior subsided.  However, now that we are mixing two meds, he is back to uncontrollable crazy.  Our bedroom is a decent size and from there you walk into the master bath and on into the walk in closet.  It's a long straight shot.  I was putting on makeup and fixing my hair this morning and every once in awhile he would just jet past me from one end of the bedroom to the other end of the closet.  I'm hoping this subsides soon.  I'm also hoping for a good night's sleep that lasts longer than 5 hours (for me) sometime soon!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Hi

Hi, my name is Cara.  I used to have a wildly popular blog.  Well, okay, if you're my mom or sister or maybe pseudo-sister, or a distant cousin, it was wildly popular.  If not, you're not reading this anyway, right? 

Not sure what the issue has been but I just haven't been very interested in posting lately.  I used to drive down the street and my mind would wander to what to post about next and I would start to mentally compose blog posts.  And then I guess I just started thinking of  other things when I was driving down the street and I quit blogging.  What else could I possibly have to think about, you ask?  When to finish the "test" for a little online course that I am taking?  Whether to attempt to sell some wreaths at a craft fair?  How to teach my wildly uncoordinated son to tie his shoes?  Are the steroids for the scary wheezing making another son's tummy upset or do we have other issues?  Is it okay to let another son watch Elmo on my iphone, mostly just because he cuddles like crazy when he's in the Elmo trance?  How much fighting amongst brothers is "normal?"

But, alas, those questions don't all have neat tidy answers so I've decided I might as well think about blogging instead.  Or at least I'm hoping to be a better blogger. Not so much for you all (sorry), but because it really is a big part of how I document our life.  I need to recap a few very special days - birthdays of two of my very favorite peeps - and then maybe just give a little picture recap of all the fun in between.

So, stay tuned.  There's more posts where this came from... [But, of course I'll leave you with a picture of my now 4 year old and now 6 year old.]

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

An anniversary of sorts...

Two posts in two days?  Guess I'm off the hook until March, huh?

Well, If I'm being honest, today has been "one of those days."  My heart wasn't really in it.  The older boys got up early early and then neither could settle down during nap/rest time.  By dinnertime there had been no quiet moments in the last 12 hours.  Add to that that Luke, who is always adventurous, was doing crazy things - trying to hammer a screw into the wall, unplugging the phone charger and swinging it around the house, dumping out the toys the second we got them picked up.  Seth was whiny.  Crazy whiny.  To the point of, "Mooooommmmm, Luke's pretending to eat pizza soup."  AND??  Anyway, my hour and a half on the couch with Max, reading, playing with kid books on my Nook, and finally snuggling with a blanket, was just the reminder I needed of why I do what I do.  Wow, that's a hefty introduction to this post. 

Things I never realized when I left the magical mystical world of being a government attorney to be a stay at home mom...

-My husband would no longer leave work, pick Seth up at daycare, run to the grocery store, and then cook dinner while I finished up "just one more thing" at work. Oddly, there was some expectation that *I* would figure out what to cook and (gasp) cook it.

-The cleaning fairy no longer showed up once a month to clean all the things I just didn't enjoy cleaning (aka everything). Again, strange expectation that *I* do this. Sensing a pattern?

-Dave's dress/work shirts no longer visit the dry cleaners and come home wrapped in plastic and ready to wear. Instead they accumulate in the "pretty" hamper in our closet until *I* wash them and then (double gasp) iron them. Again, it's really all about me, huh?

-There is no more daycare. Those days off from work where I would take Seth to daycare for a few hours, get all sorts of things accomplished, then pick him up and hang out, yeah - they no longer exist. Now I have a two or three man (boy) entourage for any errands I must run.

-How much time I would spend in the bathroom, watching other people do absolutely nothing whatsoever, but begging of them to please please please just "go."

-How many drinks could be poured into sippy cups - juice, milk, water, a very occasional lemonade.

-How many (fake) peanut butter and jelly sandwiches could be requested, prepared, and consumed. Or for that matter the number of options on which to make this sandwich - regular bread, thick bread, toast, skinny bread, tortilla, bagel, round crackers, rectangle crackers, even waffles.

-That I could watch the same Dsney movie over and over again and still get excited because it's so fun to watch the boys act it out along the way.

-That a kleenex-less mom with a sneezing child could fix the obvious problem by wiping the snot off with my own sleeve and then just rolling it up another roll.

-That there could be so many "ouchies" that would need kissed and that I would get to do all of that kissing.

-That all your priorities fly out the window when the sweetest 21 month old runs to you and wraps himself around your knees.

-That mornings are great times for cuddling a lovely almost 4 year old, and trading in fancy coffee and bagels isn't really a big deal when the trade off is Curious George and a fleece blanket.  

-That after signing your own name nearly 100 times a day, seeing your five year old write his name like he's been doing it forever could nearly reduce me to tears.

Yes, today is the 4 year anniversary of hanging up the heels and hosiery and trading them in for jeans, comfy pants, and casual shoes.  Usually at least one of those is covered in snot and/or food.  It's not easy, but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

Monday, January 30, 2012

11 Good Things from 2011

I have NO idea why I start posts and nearly finish them and just ignore them for weeks at a time.  It is so cruel to my loyal readers mom and sister.  So, weeks late...

I have heard a LOT of people commenting that they are glad to see 2011 go.  So, I thought I would share some kind words about the year 2011.  Following are 11 good things from 2011 - silly, serious, certainly random...

1.  As mentioned in the last post, my picture a day album.  Of course, it became more of a week by week album as there were just days that weren't photo worthy.  But, still it's nearly a complete a book.  It feels good to not be another year behind in scrapbooking.

2.  My Nook.  WHAT a great little toy.  [Thanks, hubby.]  I don't read nearly as much as I would like, but I do read more now that I have it.  I can borrow a book from the library at 11 at night in my jammies.  How much more convenient does it get?

3.  Songs.  I love the song "Do Everything" by Stephen Curtis Chapman.  If you are a parent, you can relate immediately.  Win-win, he made a silly little video that the boys love to watch, so they are entertained and I get a good reminder! 

4.  I participated in a Beth Moore Bible study this summer.  I know some people love her.  Others are not so enamored.  I enjoyed the study.  Something she said really stuck with me.  God doesn't make all new things.  He makes all things new.  We have to remember enough of where/who we've been to appreciate where/who we've become.

5.  Seth and kindergarten.  He LOVES LOVES LOVES it.  His teacher is fantastic.  He is learning to read and I think that is terribly exciting.  I love to read and so much want the boys to love it too. 

6.  Luke's new allergy doctor.  I love that he works only with kids.  He explains things in a way that just makes sense.  He is up on the current research.  Riley is an incredible place.  Of course, it doesn't hurt that he gave us some potential good news relating to at least one of his allergies.

7.  The iphone.  I know - two technology references.  But, it's really great.  There are fun photography apps and some games and books for the kids.  It's nice to have a little something to distract them with in a pinch.

8.  Max is the perfect baby of the family.  I'm not saying he's perfect.  Although he is pretty awesome.  But, he is perfect at being the baby of the family.  Seth and Luke will settle in to watch a movie and he spends most of that movie running from one to the other and messing with them.  He's also getting quite good at screaming in their faces when they take "his" toys. 

9.  This quote from the pastor at our church a few weeks ago - "God meets you where you are."  Again, I've heard it time and time again, but I'm a person who thinks everything has to be in perfect order before I can start a project.  As a result I spend a lot of time preparing things and not much time doing things.  I think I just needed to be reminded that God doesn't expect me to be in a certain place to spend time with Him.  Just do it.  No prep work needed, so to speak. 

10.  "My" word - commit.  It really was a neat concept, having one word to make you stick with something and strive for some things.  2012's word to come...
11.  My husband.  This is not unique to 2011, of course!  I kept asking him to contribute a couple of 'good' things from 2011.  Let's just say he's not been very serious about his responses.  But, I'm incredibly thankful for him - for working hard to provide for his family, for being a loving dad to his boys, and for supporting whatever insane idea I have this week. 

Alright, now that it's almost February, time to move on to 2012!

Friday, January 13, 2012

Top 10 reasons it's fun to lose power on one of the coldest days of the year...

1.  Hubby must have coffee and knows not to come home (from taking Seth to school) with only one cup of Starbucks.

2.  No one questions the decision to lazily sit on the couch wrapped in a double fleece blanket.

3.  It's too cold for meat to thaw = pizza for dinner!

4.  Vacation day at the 'rents when it becomes too unbearably cold.

5.  Cold babies need extra cuddles.

6.  Fire in the fireplace smells good. 

7.  An afternoon trip to Target when its 20 degrees out seems less insane when you have no heat in your house.

8.  I can't possibly take the clothes out of the dryer.  Do you know how cold the air is that blows through the vent?

9.  Get to look like a deer in headlights when your 5 year old asks, "What's a transformer?"  [For the record, I did know enough to tell him they were not talking about Bumblebee.]

10.  It's always good to test out your supply of flashlights and candles.  Although in the future I would suggest doing so before you are lying in bed in the dark having a mental argument with yourself about not wanting to get up and suddenly hear all electrical powered items in your home go silent. 

Friday, December 30, 2011

One little word, revisited...

Some of you may remember that I chose one word for 2011.  A word to inspire me and shape my year.  I talked about my word, commit, here. Well, seems it might be time for a little review.  To what did I want to commit?  [in no particular order]

One, to my picture a day scrapbook.  I am happy to report that I am still taking lots of pictures and mostly keeping up.  I am working on November this afternoon and hopefully can move on to December this evening.  2011 required two books!   This year was a good start, but I can see ways which I could improve.  For starters, I went ahead and bought the actual kit for next year.  I thought it wasn't necessary, and it's certainly not, but it will be MUCH easier to just use the kit - the journal cards and filler papers are already cut to the correct sizes so I won't need my paper cutter or adhesives for much of anything.  I have a small tote with all of my extra supplies - markers, embellishments, etc.  And best of all, the boys love to look through it already. 
Another, to walk a half marathon.  We (my sister and I) did it!!  We completed the Indianapolis  Womens' Half in September and are registered for the 500 Festival Mini in May.  I have wanted to do the 500 mini for a long time but I kept having babies.  So, I'm super excited for that!  Plus, I definitely stick with a program better if I have that extra motiviation of an upcoming event. 
A third, church.  I am helping with one of the classes - girls, a little older than Seth.  I really wanted the boys to know me in this role - not as their teacher but as someone who is involved at church.  We taught for so long, but not since Seth was old enough to know/remember.  It was really bothering me that Seth only knows me as a fairly uninvolved church attender, not a teacher/helper/doer.  I also joined the MOPS group at our church and that has really helped.  At least I recognize other moms as we all pick up our kiddos. 
Finally, my kids.  I know this is the most important and likely the one area I will never feel like I can commit enough.  I am reaching the conclusion that it will just never feel like enough.  When you really think about how blessed we are to have these three beautiful little boys to love on, care for, train up, etc. it's just overwhelming.

I am currently in search of my 2012 One Little Word.  I'm tossing around some ideas, but I need to find that one word that will sum it all up.  And you, do you have a word for the year?

Monday, November 21, 2011

Business as usual

Or not so much.  I mentioned recently that I was starting a cute, tiny small business.  I made a couple of wreaths this last year for family decorations.  Turns out, some people thought they were cute.  So, I've decided to try to sell some on Etsy.  I haven't sold any yet, but I just recently started listing them.  So, hope on over to my Etsy shop and give it a look:  http://www.etsy.com/shop/NotYourMamasWreath.  And if you're on facebook, search "NotYourMamasWreath" and like my page.  That's all the begging I'll do.  For today.

It's been fun (and yes, that probably makes me odd) to shop around for all of the supplies (primarily online) and price things out and figure out what it all costs me and the best way to get the supplies and how many supplies to get and create some spreadsheets and all that good stuff. 

However, I think David is super excited that we're having everyone here for Thanksgiving so that I am forced to take totes of wreaths and huge bags of balloons up the stairs to the office and out of the corner of the kitchen!  I do think though that he is "commissioning a few pieces" as Christmas gifts so I hope he knows the kitchen corner is only getting a temporary reprieve!